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Mar. 20th, 2011 @ 10:24 pm Spring Once Again
Current Location: outside
Current Mood: anxiousanxious

I awake to see a new blossom on the tree
Spring is here once again
Old life being reborn
New smiles on old faces
Air filling my lungs
And new smells filling my nostrils
The tips of greenery push up through the soil
The bees and other insects happy that this time has come again...

I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL SUMMER!!!     XD


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Feb. 13th, 2011 @ 04:29 am My Favorite Tea Quotes
Current Mood: amusedamused

"If leeches ate peaches instead of my blood, then I would be free to drink tea in the mud!"

~  Emilie Autumn

 

"My hour for tea is half-past five, and my buttered toast waits for nobody."

~ Wilkie Collins, The Woman in White

 

 

"A Little Princess...it's always tea-time... "

 ~ Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland

 

 


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Feb. 13th, 2011 @ 04:24 am Poetry By Emily
Current Mood: indescribableindescribable

The Pain They Can't See 

 

She sees him every day, weather here or there.

The pain creeps back though she tries to push it away.

When they talk only nervous gestures are given to end it quickly

As if any longer would kill them.

"Why?" You ask... her eyes fill with tears...

As if she has any control over what happens...

She answers with a swift and uncertain "I don't know..."

Just to turn away; back into her desolate state of self-pity.

Another day passes like all the rest,

Each day harder as she hides behind fake smiles.

As if he knew what truly ran through her head.

As if he even cared what would only make HER eyes cry at night.

She walked another step behind the curtain of lies.

The lies that she filled in her head that he wouldn't hurt her.

Each step harder than before,

She pulls herself along on end endless routine fit for her mind only.

Friends try to help, yet she can't get off of this continuous treadmill of sadness.

The days go on until her body gives in.

People telling her she has to 'change for the better'...

It just makes her sadder, and sadder.

She doesn't want to leave what they had.

The only person that she could ever talk to.

Friends abandon her one by one,

Each to move on with their lives as she still strives for that love.

The love that makes her fight until there is nothing left to fight for.

She collapses, nothing left to fight for, nothing left to live for.

She curls into a ball to fall asleep.

This is the end...

The end to all of her troubles.

The realization of what she had;

Of what she had killed herself over.

This is ME...

The END of me...


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Feb. 13th, 2011 @ 04:18 am Poetry By Emily
Current Mood: crappycrappy

What You Can't See: The Condition of the Heart...

 

The happy smiles on faces just aren't the same.

The camoflauge, just to cover the pain.

How can you not see that,

See that the pain is ripping away; from the inside out.

 

The body is an armor,

But it can fade away.

The brokenness inside...

Something you can't see.

 

What will it take to make you see that what you've done to me...

That what you've done: just rips me away?

 

The tears flow

When no one  knows...

The only time to let the armor go...

 

The tears flow

And there's no one to catch them...

now it's time to go...

yeah it's time to go...

 

The body is an armor,

But it can fade away.

The brokenness inside...

Something you can't see.

 

How much longer do we suffer here?

The time we spend just doesn't seem fair...

I need you by my side...

Never to leave me...

 

But you will go...

Yeah you'll fade...

But you will go...

Yeah YOU'LL FADE!

 

The body is an armor,

But it can fade away.

The brokenness inside...

Something you can't see (x3)

 

Please don't leave me...

Please don't go...

I need you with me.

More than...

 

You'll ever know...


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Feb. 13th, 2011 @ 04:16 am Poetry By Emily
Current Mood: depresseddepressed

How To Survive... The Desperation Calls...

 

I can't be perfect.

Perfection is a dream,

A dream is a fantasy...

A nightmare.

 

With everything being a trend now...

I don't know how I've made it thru...

Up and down.

My life slowly being torn at the never-ending seems.

 

I can't stand this burden placed on my heart.

The pain overwhelms...

Breaks down barriers that I put up.

How now to get by?

 

I need someone to love...

To hold onto...

Thru thick and thin.

A decision; I must now come to.

 

I cry all night with no one to hug.

No one to talk to...

I'm just another shadow in this big, ugly, world.

Just another face to be spat upon.

 

I want to let go;

I want to just leave...

Let me go!

Let me see!

 

The earth is a big place,

 And I am trapped like a lab-rat.

People that need to be loved...

Souls like mine that need to be embraced.

 

Let me go...

Let me see...

Let me leave this place.

 


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Feb. 13th, 2011 @ 04:13 am Poetry By Emily
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative

The Colors In MY Rainbow...

 

White is a new beginning... the time I have with you.

Red is the blood that keeps me going... the drops I have~ only a few.

Green, the glorious envy... the pride I can't rip out.

Blue is the tide of sadness... that pulls me further out each second I'm without you.

Pink~ the pearly marbles in YOUR eyes that gleam only when you miss me too.

Orange is the flame that doesn't burn out... who only knows what keeps it going.

Yellow is such a beautiful color... yet, it makes me sad... why?

Black, every color all in one, this sets me into a swirl of happiness... is that so bad? 


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Feb. 13th, 2011 @ 04:12 am Poetry By Emily
Current Mood: frustratedfrustrated

Don't Leave Me Alone...

 

The skies are an endless ocean of opportunities

We loose our sights and reach too far...

Not far enough sometimes it seems.

To reach the things that we want...

What we crave.

 

A dark shadow to consume our greedy souls,

Yet a light to burn them into the murkiness again?

 

Why a rainbow in the sky?

To show the symbolism of love...

That's why...

That's why...

 

It scares me...

I wish too much.

 

Too many things run through my head

The screams of joy turning blood-red...

Why these thoughts?

I do not know.

 

It reflects my being...

My inner self it seems.

But I can not understand it...

Why?

 

Shine through the darkness and reach me...

Shine a new day into these murky depths...

Pull me up before the time is too late.

 

Before I can't see you,

Before my time is due...

I Love You... Forever...

I'll Be With You... Whenever...  


 

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Feb. 13th, 2011 @ 04:09 am Poetry By Emily
Current Mood: deviousdevious

 When the skies darken...

     And the waters begin to churn...

          Close your eyes and here the whisper...

               And feel your skin begin to burn... Burn... BURN! 


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Feb. 13th, 2011 @ 04:06 am Poetry By Emily
Current Mood: sadsad

T his love is wrong...

I knew it all along...

I shouldn’t have told you from the start.

I made you worry too much...

B lame me.

I ’m the only one who made things complicated.

W e were friends...

B est friends...

B ut I broke it.

I dirtied it....

I shouldn't have done that.

T his is my fault.

I broke our promise to remain best friends forever.

B ut who knew this would happen?

S o, do as you wish...

K ick me out of your life forever.

B ut never says you hated me...

T hat would make me die.

I 'd never see you the same again...

S o I'll walk away with a sad smile on my face.

ust to live another while longer in this bleak emptiness.


 

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Feb. 13th, 2011 @ 04:04 am The Best Conversation Ever!
Current Mood: geekygeeky

ok, so i was chillin in the livin room w/ mom and dad when an 'unknown name, unknown number' called us... well i always have fun whenever these ppl call *cause it's usually a prank call*... well, i picked it up and here is the WHOLE conversation w/ edited afganian-sounding slurs hahahaha... ENJOY!!! :

 

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala...

 

me: who the heck is calling *looks at phone* haha, uknown eh? *click* GO AWAAYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

???: hmmm? ello! my name is peate-rrr

me: what?

peter: my name is peate-rrr from the *something something* shipping company

me: hahahahahaha oml ok?

peter: i am dooking for a dori bich???

me: ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....

peter: i am dooking for a dori bich... is he dare?

me: um... lori? yeah, ummm SHE is eating at the moment... can i tell her to call you back?

peter: jes! i am peate-rrr from the *something something* shipping company

me: yeah... hahahahahaha i got that part ^_^

peter: jes, may i peak to dori bich?

me: no, she's eating right now, i'll tell her to give you a call back... i gtg mom told me not to talk to strangers...

peter: i am dot a sdranger: i am peate-rrr from the *something something* shipping company... may i know your name for my company?

me: no. i can't give you that information dude. *chuckle*

peter: y no?

me: ure a stranger hahahahaha

peter: i am peter

me: yeah, i got that hahahahahahahahaha!

peter: i am no sdranger! i am peter, du r sdranger.

me: no...

peter: can i have name to go..

me: no, i gtg

peter: y r u laughing?

me: hahahahaha

peter: r*tounge vibrate sound*rrrrr u laughing at my ococcent?

me: no! i love you accent!

peter: no, you laugh

me: yeah, cause i love you accent!

peter: well, tank you knidly for jur apresiashion

me: ok?

peter: can i have name?

me: no

peter: may i speak to dori bich

me: no

peter: y no?

me: because my daddy is gonna yell at me if i keep talking to... nope, here he comes...

peter: ...

me: i gotta go mr. pete

peter: i need name

me: no... hahahahahahahaha

peter: ok

me: hahahahahaha

peter: y r*tounge roll thingy*rrrrrrr u laughing???

me: nothin, i gotta go >________<

peter: rambles on...

me: *click* BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!

 

dad: what was so funny?

me: *tells dad story*

both: l.o.b.o!

 

me: *runs into den* ... ben!!!

ben: what?

me: *tells ben story*

both *and dad*: l.o.b.o!!

 

me: *shrieks* my name ish peate-rrrrrrrr*tounge roll thingy*rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! bahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha! *stomach cramps up*

 

me: *runs into room and blogs on fb*

 

wow... that made my night!!! ^_^ ahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!

 

<3


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